can you hear me?

sometimes i feel beyond frustrated.
with the city, people, my job, school.
even things like dirty dishes being left in the sink make me snap.
people complain about where they are seated. or complain about getting an A in a class. or about something totally insignificant.
you're bitching to me about your table -- a table? a table. yes, you're going out to a restuarant to eat. some people don't actually have that luxury. so SHUT up, sit down, and eat and enjoy.
it scares me how people today fail to realize how blessed we are in this crazy world.
as much as i complain about life.... i have so many blessings in it.
my amazing mother, my siblings who always make me laugh, and the three amazing girls i live with and feel privileged to call my friends. and this city! HELLO I live in a city! I got away. i go to university.
and yet i still complain...
i guess it's all relative. and we all need someone to listen to us .... right?

nobody wants to be lonely...

at work we have these lil' old men that come in by themselves all the time. the regulars.and yesterday one of them came in .. he's about 70+ and I sat him in the back because at the time it was busy. he told me he was waiting for a friend.two hours later he was sitting in the back by himself (because it was closed off at this time) eating his meal. his friend never showed up. he just sat there doing nothing. or reading.and it dawned on me-these lil' ol' guys are alone in the world.they have probably lost a loved one, or didn't have a loved one. never married, or married. no kids. no friends. just utterly alone in this world. i wanted to go sit down next to them, chat, have some coffee. what a horrible feeling that must be.i'm scared of my future -- and I sincerely hope that never happens to me.